Here's the situation:
-I'm employed "full time" but struggling to get the hours I want, thus making it difficult to save for school (this is only going to get worse next month as I won't be able to stay as late in the day due to night school for the summer, my boss doesn't show up till 9:30ish and I can't start work without him, so I can get 7 hrs a day if lucky). I *want* to work hard and long, I hate having to wait around for my boss and wait for them to find stuff for me to do. I WANT TO WORK. It's ridiculous that this company is paying me for full time but they don't have a full time workload to give me. I want to bail and go somewhere that can keep me busy, but for just the next 4 months? Who would take me on for just 4 months? I can't work past the end of August, not full time anyways.
-I am apartment hunting, which is actually even more tedious, annoying and discouraging than job hunting, because when you're on a limited budget, all you can get are dirty little closets with foreign/cranky landlords. I want out of where I'm at though because I essentially live in a dirty little closet AND have a complete slob of a roommate, who I think if at this point I tried to tell him to clean up his filthy act he would probably try to get me kicked out anyways, so basically I might as well try to find a nicer place.
-I had found a place that seemed pretty ideal, but as I kind of suspected from the beginning, I don't think the girl who showed me the place was super keen on me, and I just got confirmation that they have given the place away, before even letting me meet the other roommates.
-I desperately want to take charge of my life and stop ending up in positions where I'm at other people's mercy. I can't really take charge of my working life until next year, after I'm further in my schooling, I can't take charge of my living situation because I'm on a budget for school and I'd like to just skip the summer and start school right now but I can't do that. So I get to play hurry up and wait.
-I'm also frustrated in my lack of a love life, and while I am trying to put some effort into changing that, once again, when my working and living situations aren't even in order completely, how can I even think about my love life? It's a cycle that repeats often and I hope to the god I don't believe in that next year I can finally get all my ducks in a row like I want. I'm very close, and despite being far too used to having to be patient, I'm really tired of always having to wait just a little longer.
Anyways, ranting makes me feel better so I'm doing it often. It could certainly be much worse, it's just I am ready to be a god damn independent professional adult but will alone isn't enough, I have to get that stupid piece of paper and get the better income so I can afford to live on my own again and not have to worry about roommates or crappy landlords...
Alright, that's all for now.
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